I am going to get very personal, but before I finish this letter I will reveal something that will be outside the realm of understanding for people that do not know about the workings of the Spirit of God

I write this with a sad heart, but I am rejoicing in the spirit. JoAnn transferred into the Kingdom of God on February 19, 1999. I am O.K., and will be O.K., because I have the peace that no man can understand, peace that only the Lord can give (Phlp 4:7). I thank everyone that heard about this and has contacted me, prayed for me and sent food and flowers. Each show of love and support was welcomed. I knew that JoAnn had reached the point that without God’s intervention she could leave at any time. Still, not wanting to be apart, we continued to pray against cancer and for her healing. We did this for almost seven years. We also prayed for a multitude of other people that are fighting this disease. Knowing that only God’s revelation knowledge can stop it.

Some may wonder why, while thousands of people were praying for JoAnn, she was not healed. I also wonder about this, and about many others that I have prayed for that did not get healed. But I am thankful for all of those God did make whole.

It could be that when God does not answer our prayers we are like an art student, one who makes a painting that is perfect in his own eyes. Then He expects an "A" for his work; but when the teacher looks at the painting he gives a lower grade. The teacher is much more knowledgeable than the student and the teacher is in control of the outcome. The Holy Spirit is our teacher and He is always in control of the outcome, even when we think we are praying exactly as we should. Actually, we can do nothing that pleases God apart from the Holy Spirit, nor can we be in step with Him except by hearing His voice and operating on what He says.

No man has it all together because we know in part (I Cor. 13:9). Therefore, I continue to have faith in God, but question my ability to let Him lead me at all times. JoAnn and I followed what we understood in the word and used the teachings of many faith teachers. Several ministers of faith laid hands on JoAnn and prayed for her; this included Oral Roberts. We attended four Benny Henn Miracle Crusades. JoAnn prayed the scriptures that are posted on our web site, but even with all of this she was not healed. Therefore, without her, I will continue the ministry. With His help the proper person will take the K.O.J. office of Secretary and Treasurer, the office JoAnn held.

After my 1974 death and return to the earth experience, the time when I was shocked with 4,200 volts, words of knowledge from God became routine. Many people that I prayed for know of this gift. Sometimes God tells me something that I do not wish to know. Then I try to ignore what I am hearing, or think maybe I was not hearing from God. This happened concerning JoAnn. Some time ago, I knew in my spirit that JoAnn would be transferred, even promoted, but because of my desires to keep such a wonderful woman I continued to pray against what God was telling me. I have asked Him to forgive me for that.

I am thankful that Jesus was, and is, as much a part of JoAnn’s life as I was. She knew Him personally. I am thankful for the 51 plus years that JoAnn and I had together. I am thankful for the many years of ministry she had and I am thankful for all that God has given to us. I am thankful for all the times she ministered at my side in counseling. I am thankful for all the many lives she touched and made better. This was evidenced by statements made at the funeral in Iuka, Mississippi and the commemorative service at Temple Baptist Church in Hattiesburg, Mississippi. Even these services touched people. Although it was a time of loss it was also a time of rejoicing. As JoAnn was honored God was praised. So, I am thankful for all the people that worshiped in these services.

In December of 1997, a friend, Jan Meador, was praying for JoAnn and God gave her a song, "JoAnn’s Song." Jan taped it for JoAnn who found peace many times by listening to her song. On February 21, 1999, Jan drove to Iuka where she played and sang this song in JoAnn’s funeral service. She rendered it again in the Hattiesburg service. On the night JoAnn was transferred another friend, Terry Goetz did not know she was gone when he dreamed about her. He saw her dancing, on a sparkling surface, in a flowing white dress and dancing to a beautiful tune, a tune Terry had never heard before. He was present when Jan played and sang JoAnn’s Song in Hattiesburg. Terry tells how he was overwhelmed when he heard Jan presenting the song from his dream, the one that had been going over and over in his head.

Jan Meador reserves all rights to JoAnn’s Song, but has given permission for me to print the words in this letter. It is a tribute to my wife and to our Lord. I hope you find peace in the words of this song just as JoAnn did. I can still hear her praising God and saying, " I love my Jesus sooo much!" And I must close by saying Amen and JoAnn I love you sooo much also.

(Be Still My Soul)

Be still my soul, and know the Lord is always right here with you

Be still my soul, and rest within the arms of He who loves you

For the one who hung the stars in place

saved you with His loving grace

caused you to seek His face

and to know His warm embrace

Be still, be still

Be still my soul

(Verse 2)

Be still my soul, allow His Holy presence to surround you

Be still my soul, and feel His tender spirit all around you

For the Lord hears every prayer you breathe

sees you down upon your knees

feels your pain and knows your grief

offers you his sweet release

Be still, be still

Be still my soul

(Verse 3)

Be still my soul, and listen for the still small voice within you

Be still my soul, and hear the Word of God He’s speaking to you

For His Word will break the chains of sin

keep your soul from evil men

give you hope and peace within

lift you up time and again

Be still, be still

Be still my soul

(Verse 4)

Be still my soul, I know that God is God and that He loves me

Be still my soul, He’ll never leave me and He’ll not forsake me

For in the shadow of His wings

I will lift my voice and sing

praises to my God and King

and to Him I’ll always cling

Be still, be still

Be still my soul

Copyright © All rights reserved by Jan Meador 12-28-97

The words and music to this song must not be reproduced in any form without written permission from the author.